spicy_004

I finally have internet and a phone! Yea!

2005-06-09T23:10:10Z

I am unbelievable excited that I am currently online and on my new laptop! Yea!

We finished packing up all our stuff and cleaning at the other house today. It took us three hours and it was over ninety degrees, but at least now we're done.

I'm so bored right now it's not funny. I need a life of some sort so I have something to occupy my wasted time. I think I just need another job so I can use my time to make money.

Anyway, I'm going to be babysitting in a couple of minutes, but only for one kid (the cutest little boy ever!) and only for a couple hours at the most. Bubba (or Daniel), the kid I'm babysitting, is only a year and a half and he makes me want to have a baby SO bad. For some reason I love little kids lately.

I'm looking forward to my graduation party on Saturday, but the dread is starting to creep in. It's going to suck having to talk to a bunch of people I don't know and have everyone hug me and stuff, but it should still be pretty fun. And I'll hopefully make a lot of money ;)

Well, I better go now and do something. Talk to everyone later!

Last Day of School!

2005-05-27T13:54:04Z

So, I'm sitting in my last class of high school EVER! It's so exciting! Anyway, I have graduation practice in a couple minutes, which is guaranteed to be super boring and really, really long. Then free lunch, and good lunch too, not even the disgusting cafeteria food! Since I'm fat, I'm excited about that the most.

Anyway, I had too really easy exams today, which makes me happy. It's better than yesterday, when I was swamped with really long and tiring exams. Yuck. But now school is done and I am happy.

I really, really, really don't want to work this weekend. I hate work with all my heart and soul. I just want to go home and sleep forever!!! But no! I have to work all weekend and then go to the Memorial Day parade Monday morning! Argh! I don't even really get to start my summer break until next Thursday! Bastards!

We're packing up all our stuff this weekend and moving this and next weekend into our new place. It's really depressing actually. Now I'm going to miss my house just like I miss my dog and my step-dad and will miss my friends at school . It sucks. A lot. Oh well. I just keep thinking about college and all that stuff and it makes me happy again!

So, I'm down to my last ten minutes and I'm more nervous about getting my locker cleaned out and getting to the gym on time than excited. Hmmm...I wonder if Mr. Patten will realize I didn't turn in my book and I'll have to pay for a new one...I really hope not...

I'm really hungry right now and I have to wait another TWO HOURS! How upsetting! I wish I wouldn't have woken up late and skipped breakfast. I knew this was going to happen! Oh well.

Well, I better log off now. I'll talk to everyone later. Bye.

spicy_004 @ 2005-05-25T09:40:00

2005-05-25T13:53:03Z

Hi Everyone! So glad that at least someone *cough* Sam *cough* reads my live journal ;) So, the baby's doing well, as am I.

I graduate a week from today! I am so very, unbelievably, extremely, ecstatically elated! Go team! Today is my last full day of school, though my ridiculously long English exam is today, so I'm not that excited :( Tomorrow I get to leave a block early (meaning NO MORE BAND!!! YEA!!!) and on Friday we only have two classes and then graduation practice and free lunch. Then I'm done! Yea!

Anyway, I'm really happy because I might get my car REALLY soon, as in by next week. My Uncle Charlie, the greatest uncle in the world, is going to pay for my license plate and tags and insurance (which adds up to be an awful lot of money...) and the insurance is going to be under his name, which means he really must trust me or something, and...yeah...I guess that's it about that...

I'm running really low on money already, which makes me sad. I'm done to like $30 for the rest of the week and the weekend. It sucks. I need another job really bad. I'm going to start looking the day after graduation. And now that I have a car I can get a job basically anywhere! It's so exciting. I know I'm going to look for one in GR though, so then it will be closer to school in the fall. I think I want to do waitressing or sales. Something where you get to talk to people and stay relatively clean and not smelly...

I just finished my last web page and it's awesome! Now I have the rest of the class and most of next class to just do whatever I want! Oh crap...tomorrow is also my three-exam-day. First my horrible aerobics exam which I have to pass because I don't know for sure that I can pass the class without passing the exam and I need that class to graduate. Then I have my Spanish exam, which is oral, and terrible, and I hate speaking in Spanish! And finally I have my AP History exam, which will probably be long and drawn out and boring, knowing Mr. Patten, though I doubt it will be too hard. Then I get to go home! Yea! Well, actually I have to find something to do from one until three when I have to pick my mom up.

Well, class is almost done, so I'm going to go now.

Only two weeks left!

2005-05-16T12:57:01Z

I'm back at school so I can update again. For some reason my computer at home won't show this website...

Anyway, I am currently working on my tribute site to Hugh Grant for Web-Page Design class. Very exciting! I probably won't get anything accomplished today, though. I have two weeks, I can't finish it already! Ah, procrastination.

Maybe I'll go take some more on-line quizzes, but I won't post them all this time :)

spicy_004 @ 2005-05-12T10:46:00

2005-05-12T15:00:58Z

More fun quizzes!

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 60%

Envy: 20%

Greed: 20%

Gluttony: 0%

Lust: 0%

Pride: 0%

Wrath: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will die with your hand down your underwear, watching Star Trek.

How Sinful Are You?

Your Porn Star Name is: Nasty Thong

Get your own Porn Star Name

Cancer - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on

A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows

You are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with

Your negative traits:

Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner

You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult

It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down.

Your ideal partner:

Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply

Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family

Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt!

Your dating style:

Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another.

Your seduction style:

Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship.

Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild.

Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac.

Tips for the future:

Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you.

Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing.

Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first.

Best place to meet someone online:

eHarmony - you'll be able to take the time to get to know each potential match well

Best color to attract mate: Aqua

Best day for a date: Wednesday

Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female

You think with your heart, not your head

Sweet and considerate, you are a giver

But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

I love WebPage Design!

2005-05-12T13:55:56Z

Thought I'd write a real entry today instead of just posting a bunch of pointless (yet entertaining) online quizzes. I love WebPage Design (my current class)! Not only is it a total slacker class, but I just got to spend the whole hour looking up Hugh Grant pictures and it was actually for an assignment!

Today is turning out to be a pretty good day, knock on wood. In gym we had a free day, so I slept, of course, and then I looked up Hugh Grant pictures and now I'm going to seminar with absolutely nothing to do! I think we're going to the computer lab in English today too, which means I won't really have to do anything! And I'm watching a movie in history! Wow...

Well, I better log off now.

Just some random blogthings!

2005-05-11T13:36:11Z

Your #1 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #2 Match: INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #3 Match: ESFP

The Performer

You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.
A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.

You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

What's Your Personality Type?

Your Political Profile

Overall: 15% Conservative, 85% Liberal

Social Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Ethics: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

How Liberal / Conservative Are You?

You Are 27 Years Old

27

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

American Cities That Best Fit You:

65% Chicago

60% New York City

60% Philadelphia

55% Boston

55% Los Angeles

Which American Cities Best Fit You?

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.
You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.
It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Linguistic Profile:

70% General American English

15% Yankee

10% Upper Midwestern

5% Dixie

0% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Your Inner European is Italian!

Passionate and colorful.

You show the world what culture really is.

Who's Your Inner European?

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.

Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.

You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.

Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.

For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

You Belong in the UK

Blimey!

A little proper, a little saucy.

You're so witty and charming...

No one notices your curry breath

What English Speaking Country Do You Belong In?

spicy_004 @ 2005-02-10T09:30:00

2005-02-10T14:39:19Z

I haven't been to this site in a million years. Crazy stuff. Anyway, now that I have web page design, and, therefore, 70 minutes to do basically whatever I want on a computer, I've decided to start updating again. Go team!

My schedule is pretty cool this semester! I'm excited! Except my stupid gym class and AP History (Mr. Patten is so annoying!). Other than those classes, though, I really liking this semester! I've decided English is my fav class now though! It's so interesting and Mr. Annen is pretty funny. Speaking of English, I have a major paper thing to write and I have no idea what to write about! Everything is so cliche, or I is just not interesting. Make me sad. I really need to decide though, since I have it in a couple of hours and I still need a quote and some info. Talk about procrastination. Oh well.

Today, in gym class, I decided that I'm really sick of being fat, and hence am going to really, truly try and change. For real this time. I think giving up soda is a step in the right direction, as well as participating in gym class (which I do), so, I'm making progress. It's just so much work. Living is so much work! Yeah, I know I'm like the laziest person in the world :) What do ya do.

Well, I should probably go work on my English paper now.

(no subject)

2004-08-26T05:34:29Z

I don't know how long it's been since I've updated this thing, but I figured I better. School's starting in a couple of days...Makes me really sad. I guess I'm kinda ready for it to start, but I really don't want it to...I'm just glad it's almost over! Yah! I still have to do all my homework though...Shit...

Anyway, I just got back from hanging out with people, which was pretty fun (like usual), and I'm dead tired. More like drained actually...I don't think I could sleep, even if I tried, but I can't really move a whole lot either...It's weird...But anyway, enough complaining for now.

I really, really want to see the movie Taking Lives! It looks soooo awesome, even if Angelina Jolie is naked - YUCK - I still want to see that, and the Manchurian Candidate, but that's still in the theaters.

In other totally unrelated news, my mom got in a car accident today and messed up the front of her car...Which really sucks, seeming how we just replaced a bunch of crap in it. It's not totalled though, like my sister first said, which is good...I guess...

Oh, before I go - Bdon, if you ever read this (and if you do, you must be on the computer) burn me the Kill Bill Vol. 2 CD. Don't forget...

Well, I guess thats it for now. Catch you on the flip-side!

~Karen~

spicy_004 @ 2004-07-12T16:57:00

2004-07-12T21:02:20Z

Well, I figured I'd update...so, here it is.

Nothing really exciting is happening in my life right now...

Yesterday was my birthday! Yah! But other than that, I have no life. Seriously. It's four in the afternoon and I'm still in my PJ's...
H
mmmm...I all of a sudden feel like watching a movie...maybe I'll go do that...Actually, I really feel like getting drunk and watching a movie. That sounds like a lot of fun. Really...Naw, I won't get drunk by myself...If anyone would like to join me though, just give me a call :) JK.
Anyway, I guess I'll stop rambling...Bye for now!

Been a While...

2004-06-22T19:46:59Z

Wow! It's been a long time since I've updated my livejournal!

Well, not a lot has really happened to me lately, which is kinda depressing.

I have been acting a lot more immature lately, which is really disheartening...Oh well. Besides that, I'm just kinda like...blah...I don't really know.

Anyway, church on Sunday was REALLY good. It almost had me in tears, which is hard to do in public (I hate crying in front of people! Argh!). I can't really explain what it was that was so emotional to me, I guess it was just the whole thing...

So, I haven't talked to my crush in awhile and I think I'm going through withdrawls...(just kidding :)) Anyway, Chloe, if you read this, we have to hang out again sometime soon. For real. There's a lot of stuff I really want to talk to you about...so if you get time, I'd like to get coffee or something.

I finished reading the 5th Harry Potter book, which is awesome! I'm reading the 4th one now just so I can get my fix. I swear I have some weird obsession...On J K Rowling's site she said the 6th book won't be for a long time (I'm thinking pry next year, which makes me so sad) so I'll pry end up reading all the other ones again too.

Well, I guess that's it for now.

a fun survey i found on chloe's journal

2004-06-11T18:28:57Z

First best friend: emily adema
First car: don’t have one of those yet either
First real kiss: …that would be telling…
First break-up: never really had a real break up
screen name: spicy_004
First self purchased album: staind _ break the cycle
First funeral: my great-grandma vandragt
First pets: my cat elizabeth
First piercing/tattoo: n/a
First credit card: n/a
First true love: definitely mark johnson. lol.
First enemy: spencer. grrr.
First big trip: i went to miami for my aunt’s wedding when i was a year old
First music you remember hearing in your house: something by aerosmith i’m sure
L A S T S :
Last cigarette: about three weeks ago
Last car ride: this morning at about 1am
Last kiss: a while ago
Last good cry: i don’t really remember…
Last library book checked out: probably one i have yet to return…
Last movie watched: kill bill! awesome movie ;)
Last beverage drank: glass of ice water
Last food consumed: salad with italian dressing
Last crush: ...
Last phone call: my sister
Last time showered: this morning
Last shoes worn: red flip-flops
Last item bought: profiles in courage by jfk
Last annoyance: my sister telling me about stuff i don’t really care about
Last time wanting to die: i don’t remember
Last time scolded: hmm…don’t remember that one either

R E L A T I O N S H I P S :
who are your best friends? i don't know
do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Nope

F A S H I O N / S T U F F :
where is your favorite place to shop? anywhere…i love shopping…
any tattoos or piercings? nope

S P E C I F I C S :
do you do drugs? not usually
what kind of shampoo do you use? garnier fructis
what are you listening to right now? ronald reagan’s funeral
where do you want to get married? someday
how many buddies are online right now? sadly, 0
what would you change about yourself? i’d like to be more comfortable with myself

F A V O R I T E S :
color: green
food: probably italian food. yeah, definitely gelato…
boys' names: luke
girls' names: carmen
subjects in school: history or english
animals: cats
sports: softball
perfume: don’t know…
cologne: axe deodorant spray, even though it’s not really cologne

H A V E / Y O U / E V E R :
given anyone a bath? No
smoked? yes
bungee jumped? no
made yourself throw up? only to get out of school
skinny dipped? yes
ever been in love? maybe, but probably not
made yourself cry to get out of trouble? yep
pictured your crush naked? no…of course not…
actually seen your crush naked? no
cried when someone died? yes
lied? yes
fallen for your best friend? sort of
been rejected? yes
rejected someone? yes
used someone? no
done something you regret? yes

C U R R E N T :
clothes: jeans and a t-shirt
music: none
make-up: none
annoyance: boredom
favorite artist: …don’t know…
desktop picture: harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban. yeah, I know i’m sad
cd in player: evanescence
dvd in player: none
color of toenails: green only cuz i can’t find the nailpolish remover…

L A S T / P E R S O N :
you touched: don’t know
hugged: don’t know
you imed: don’t know
you kissed: …

A R E / Y O U :
understanding: yep
open-minded: hopefully
arrogant: i hope not
insecure: yes
interesting: i hope so
hungry: yep
smart: maybe more than your average bear
moody: definitely
hardworking: oppisite
healthy: not really. trying to get healthier though. isn’t it the thought that counts…
shy: depends who i’m around
attractive: doubt it
bored easily: my biggest downfall…
responsible: most of the time
obsessed: not usually
angry: only at my family
sad: try not to be
disappointed: in some things
happy: most of the time
hyper: if it’s late at night and i’m around friends
trusting: used to be. not as much anymore.
talkative: oh yeah
legal: we’ll just pretend the answers yes (i’m not quite sure...)

W H O / O R / W H A T / D O / Y O U / W A N N A :
kill: i don’t think i could kill anyone
slap: no one
get high with: no one
look like: my dad’s side of the family
talk to offline: anyone right now
talk to online: anyone right now

R A N D O M :
in the morning i am: in a bad mood. if i have to see the morning, i’m pretty much pissed off the whole day
all i need is: god – keeping chloe’s answer
love is: all you need
i dream about: lots of stuff
coke or pepsi: coke
flowers or candy: flowers
tall or short: tall
what do you notice first: smile
last person you danced with: …don’t know
worst question to ask: “how much do you weigh”
who makes you laugh the most: probably bdon
who makes you smile: tony
who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: …
who do you have a crush on: …
who has a crush on you: no one that i know of

D O / Y O U / E V E R :
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: only if i’m really bored
wish you were a member of the opposite sex: not usually
wish you were younger: never

N U M B E R :
of times i have had my heart broken: only once
of hearts i have broken: none i’m sure
of guys i've kissed: one
of girls i've kissed: 0
of continents i have lived in: 1
of tight friends: a few
of cds i own: only like five
of scars on body: a lot

spicy_004 @ 2004-06-09T08:17:00

2004-06-09T12:31:05Z

Wow! It's been a really long time since I've updated! It's not like I have a lot to write about or anything anyway...but, alas, I still write.

Anyway, I had a pretty fun weekend. I went to see Harry Potter twice! Yah! Even though it really wasn't that good :( I miss Richard Harris.

Then I hung out at Turtle's house Saturday night, which was cool, even though we didn't do a whole lot and certain people are mad at me for reasons I have yet to figure out...

Sunday was probably the best day though. I went to Discussions and had the awesomest Chai Tea ever! Oh man, it was so good! I've been raving about it all week, so I'll stop now...

Chloe, if you read this, we have to do it again sometime soon. Like this week or something. I don't know when everyone has to work, but we can figure it out.

Today is my second to last day of school! Yah! I'm so friggin excited! Come tomorrow I'll be free for a whole 2 1/2 months! Now I'm all hyper and stuff...Crap! I still have to sit through another exam block :( An hour and a half of stress and boredom... I could be at home sleeping, but no, I have to be here.

Oh yeah, I just wanted to add that I have this crush on this person (but I can't really disclose who it is at this moment) and I don't really know what to do and...um...I hope I didn't forget anything...Oh well ;)

Well, I guess that's it for now.

Hello Everybody!

2004-05-31T18:39:15Z

This weekend is really f-ed up! Right now it feels like a Saturday even though it's Monday. I've also done a lot of stuff and I don't really remember what day I did which on...It's crazy.
The real Saturday was pretty fun. I went to church and to a graduation party, then I went to see a movie, The Day After Tomorrow, which was kinda cheesy, but overall okay. Oh yeah! I also dyed my hair, but nothing exciting, just the usual color. On Sunday I woke up at like 12:30, which was really awesome, then went to church at 6pm. Church was alright. I liked the sermon, but I'm really having a hard time concentrating on anything for more than like 10 minutes lately. I don't know what's wrong with me!
Anyway, after church a bunch of us hung out at my house and we watched a movie and the way uncomfortable floor. It kinda sucked, but as long as everyone else had an alright time I'm okay.
Then today I was supposed to march in the parade at like 9 in the morning! No one should ever be up that early when they don't have school! So, I get dressed in my ugly uniform and get ready to go to school, but my neighbor, the guy who runs the whole Memorial Day thingy, tells me the parade is cancelled, so I'm like "I should probably still go up to school. Then my neighbors like "I went up to school and the band is cancelled too" so I'm like, "Cool." Well, I told my grandma about it and then she went into one of her bitchy speals about responsibility and how I should go up there anyway and a bunch of crap like that. Grrrr! So, she (my grandma) goes up to school to tell on me basically and then comes back all smug and shit telling me that I had to go up to school or I would get a UA! Argh! I hate people! It's so dumb!
Anyway, then I had to play in the community band thing, but that wasn't too bad, except for it was really windy. Then I came home and opened a Xanga account for some strange reason...My sister made me do it...
Well, I guess that's it for now.

spicy_004 @ 2004-05-27T20:44:00

2004-05-28T00:46:34Z

Sorry, I meant to post this yesterday, but that story about Mrs. Cunningham wasn't all true. Tony decided he wanted to make up a story about Mrs. C and write it in my live journal, so that's where it came from. Well, actually, most of it is true, except for the chair part. But, I have to agree with you Chloe, that would be really cool to see.
Promise I won't let Tony get control of my live journal anymore, so none of the stuff from here on out will be made-up.
Anyway, school's been really sucky lately. I wish the year would just be over already! Argh! The seniors are leaving tomorrow, so that's crap, but maybe that'll make the last two weeks seem really short. Hopefully. Well, I guess that's it for now.

spicy_004 @ 2004-05-26T07:37:00

2004-05-26T11:52:23Z

Yesterday in Psychology class Mrs. Cunningham was a total bitch. I think she could get fired for what she did. At the start of class someone made a smart-ass comment about Democrats and that put her in an even worse mood than she already was in. Then a kid who never shuts up started talking to people half way across the room. This pissed her off even more. The final straw, though, was when a girl snuck out of the room to go to the bathroom and came back 25 minutes later!

Finally Mrs. C had it and picked up a chair and threw it across the room at a boy who usually mouthsoff (but was strangely quiet today) and hit him in the head! For real! His head started bleeding profusely and I guess he got a concusion, but he didn't die or anything. It was a crazy day though, so crazy...

I guess menopause will make anyone spaz out and chuck a chair at someone....???

Well, that's it for now.

So incredibly full....Argh!

2004-05-26T03:01:33Z

Well, I didn't update yet today, so I figured I would quick. Nothing really exciting's happened today. I'm getting really depressed now that the seniors only have a couple days left. Makes me cry. Besides that everything is basically normal in my life.
There is one predicament though. I hope I'm not the only one who goes through this, but, even if I am crazy, I'm having a problem letting go of someone who I thought I was over. Maybe it's just a case that I want what I can't have, or maybe I'm just afraid to lose what little bit I've been able to hang on to with this person...I don't know. I'm trying not to think too much about it, so I guess I'll leave it at that. It feels good to actually admit it though, out loud, or at least on paper...sort of...
Anyway, I better head to bed so I can get up bright and early for jazz band tomorrow. Yeah me!

Complain, complain, complain

2004-05-24T19:49:18Z

Well, I didn't really think I'd post as much as I already have... Oh well. Anyway, school is kind of depressing now that the seniors are almost done. Makes me sad. Other than that, I'm happy it's almost done! Yeah!
Well, my school life (as in homework and tests) is going really well, so that means the other areas of my life (such as family and friends and health) aren't (that's how it works, don't ya know)! I know, I'm really cynical. Actually, I look at it as being realistic, not cynical or pessimistic. Ususally the world is pretty crappy, so noticing the bad just means you're not blind, deaf and dumb.
Anyway, I should probably stop complaining (that's my biggest character flaw!) and go do homework.
Ciao for now!

Bored

2004-05-24T13:31:10Z

Sitting here in Business Law class I realize how f-ed up the world is and how hypocritical people can be. Though this class usually seems like a waste of time it does remind me how stupid people can be. We just got done with a discussion about the KKK and gay marriage, but I didn't get involved. It is really hard for me not to say anything, but I know it won't matter much. There's only one other democrat than me and only a few actually humane people. And now some fool is saying labor unions are unfair and pointless. Maybe he should read The Jungle like I am right now. Then he would see the importance of labor unions! Argh! Well, I guess that's it for now.

Yeah! I finally have one!

2004-05-24T02:36:05Z

Well, after weeks of reading everyone else's, I finally got one! A live journal that is. I don't know if people will really read it, or if I'll ever write in it, but at least now I can sound all cool and what not cuz I have one.

Well, I guess I'll write about my weekend then. I went to my dad's house for the first time in like forever. After about a day there I realized why I hate going over there :( It sucks. Anyway, three of my stepsister's friends came over. They were guys, and pretty cute too, but they were also obsessed with sex and seeing everyone's boobs, so it was kinda dumb.

I also went to my grandparent's house for my sister's birthday. That was okay. My grandma makes really good cake. Yum.

Well, I guess that's it for my first entry.